sorry but i'm ranting again.
I am super fucked up these few days.
Be it because of anyone that matters, or be it caused by my attitude, I want to apologise to everyone that had been affected by me.
SORRY !
And I really mean it !
Sorry for giving my friends attitude which they don't deserve it at all (esp to mingyang). Sorry to those whom I didn't treasure you enough.
PS: If you are wondering why I want to type all these, its because I just had a quarrel with Elysia T____T
PPS: We argued using sms. But After half an hour, I called her and, everything just went 'POOF' and solved.
PPPS: Don't you find it amazing? We didn't mention anything about the argument. Please forgive me for being Haolian here :P
Right, this isn't my purpose of ranting.
Days have been hard. You think I really want to show attitude to people mehs? Hello, I'm not some insane people. Its because they agitates me for nothing.
I never believe a person could be loved by EVERYONE. There must be someone out there who dislikes you. Even if you ARE perfect, there must be someone who hates you for being that perfect. Thats jealousy. (And I never believe someone can be 100% perfect. Do you?)
So, I accept the reality that there ARE people out there who hates me.
But so what?
Do I have to hide at one corner and gets EMO?
I don't need to.
Do I need to do something which they like, because I need to make them happy?
I don't need to. Thats not part of my job.
Everyone is unique. I'm CHIAM, i'm not some bitch you can take control of.
People (having 'grass-growing brains') LOVE to gossip. Don't you agree?
Few days ago, People start gossiping about me and one guy, whom I started to be slightly close with. The real reason is because I wanted to ask him homework, in fact alot of homework. AND he is considered hardworking. I swear.
I don't need to further elaborate because its a waste of saliva.
And then, people start pointing fingers at us and talk behind MY BACK.
Here is some advice to those gossipers who have nothing better to do:
Why the hell should my life be controlled by you shit faces? Whats so fun about gossiping about a girl with a guy? Grow up and be mature, for God's sake. Its the 21st century. A girl in good terms with a guy doesn't mean they have to marry each other when they grow up. While, do YOU? If you do, I can give you piorities in thinking the way how idiots do.
I don't need any comments from you regarding my private life. Before you start scrutinizing people, take a good look at yourselve infront of the mirror and see whether, ARE YOU AS PERFECT AS YOU WANT PEOPLE TO BE.
Actually, I was so so so so sooooo infuriated when I heard people gossiping about me and, the other guy that is concerned.
I was so angry that I have the urge to scold them.
But, I didn't :)
Scold me for being coward if you want. But I'm proud of it! Its because I don't want to lose any friends before I leave this school. I don't want to cause any unnesessary trouble for myself. Its only roughly 1 week left to graduation ! And I'm being positive enough to vent my anger here and not in real life. That wouldn't benefit me in any ways, right?
Anyway.. I got to admit I was being really bitchy these few days ):
Had a quarrel (sorry, but yes, again T_T) with KX roughly one week ago.
And then my friends around me, for EG, Huipin was, hmmmmmm, quite affected because she's caught in the middle. (or maybe she's not -.-)
So, I messaged KX to say sorry.
And the problem was solved !
Well, hope it is.
And not forgetting to message MingYang to apologise for giving him attitude. [ Reason to give him attitude is because he used a ruler to scratch the table, producing those irritating sound that I hate the most. But hey, Junhao, the guy sitting beside him also agreed it WAS irritating. Its just that, I over-reacted ): ]
Okay okay, I'm almost done with my rantings. Let me finish up before you bombard me with negative comments.
I just want people to know that, its not fair for you to comment about others when you are not perfect either. How would you feel when people start backstabbing you too?
I don't think you will love it.
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But if you do..
God bless you. Promise to live long.
huiyan-
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